Welcome. A rant.

Here's what I don't get. I do all the things that I've always read girls love and say they want and tried to do things to clear her mind and make her life less stressful (like cleaning up and cooking for her and such) and she still doesn't seem to want it.

I took her on a date last night, and granted she was upset about something earlier in the evening, we had a great time. She was smiling a lot and really seemed to enjoy it. Even though I'd expected not to get laid (kinda bad that I can expect that, huh?), after the night was through, she seemed to be in such a good mood that I thought, maybe tonight?

Unfortunately, nothing happened. I was kinda upset last night going to bed. She wasn't very affectionate (a problem that has been bothering me and I had brought up to her before), and she just said thanks for tonight as she was on her way to sleepyland.

I laid awake for a while last night just thinking about it. It feels like she's keeping herself at arms length and it doesn't make me feel very comfortable and I've completely stopped trying to initiate anything with her partly because (and I know this is wrong and like playing games) I want to see if she's eventually going to try to initiate sex with me like she used to.

More on this to come. Welcome to my blog, sorry to start it off on such a sour note. Better things to come, I promise.